Sinking

i need to find some inner peace. quick.

"As human beings, our greatness lies not so much in being able to remake the world - that is the myth of the 'atomic age' - as in being able to remake ourselves." - Gandhi

i feel like i'm being eaten alive - so much discontentment. anger. annoyance. i'm that rug on everyone's floor that they keep wiping their feet on and i'm tired of it. wayd is the only person (excluding parents of course) in my life right now who hasn't been either walking all over, abandoning me or simply putting everyone else first. i feel like i do my best to drop whatever i'm doing when others need help... why is it that no one ever wants to help me? what i hate worse though is when i'm made to feel like an unwanted obligation. i fight every single day to get out of bed. my body hurts so bad some mornings that it's a struggle to breathe, seriously even my TOES hurt on a daily basis, but i "grit my teeth" and deal with it. i feel like i always have the weight of the world on my shoulders, but yet, no matter what - if someone needs me i'm there with bells on.

2 miles

we walked more than we ran. we also got rained on.

my "o" key is sticking and it's making me angry.

ugh.

i pulled the short hair off better when i was younger.
if only i hadn't fried my hair..... :/

Friday Fill-Ins #166

1. Why are you making such a big deal out of something so tiny?

2. I want you to take your phone and just delete my number.

3. So maybe then it will be on my terms.

4. Forget about me and see what happens.

5. I could use a nice little mini vacation.

6. I want to go see Alice in Wonderland and then have an awesome weekend.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to (see above) see a movie, tomorrow my plans include taking a few three years olds to the zoo with two friends of ours and Sunday, I want to relax!